Avoiding the internal interrogation on avoidance

Is it you?

Is it me?

As I watch your back

Disappearing around a rack of clothes

In bemusement

I wonder

Is it you?

Is it me?

What does it take to make someone duck and dive

Avoidance?

Clearly.

Paranoia

Used to grip me

“Oh God what have I done?”

But the answer became the same old one

“Nothing”

These days

I let the conversation continue on in my head

Without further input

Instead

Pay for my purchase

Smile at the attendant

Walk away

Is it you?

Is it me?

The point is

It really doesn’t matter anymore.

8 thoughts on “Avoiding the internal interrogation on avoidance

  1. LOVE this! What a freeing experience it is to stop wondering if we are ‘okay’ in any sense. People pleasing robs us of so much positive experience. It causes us to question everything and be hyper-critical of ourselves (as well as others sometimes!)

    Beautiful job. I really enjoyed it! 🙂

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    • Ha! Thanks Holly – Everything about other people is their responsibility including their actions and reactions, all we can do is keep being us and the worst tactic is defensiveness, it solves nothing. 😊 I only included this because I know so many people particularly girls and women have trouble around this “is it me?” Issue. The older I get the more I realise that this sort of avoidance is an indicator of anxiety or mental health issues within the other person. People with a happy equilibrium just smile and wave. Have a great day 👋😉

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