If I close my eyes, a thousand dots begin to shimmer
stretching out from my sides
to the front
If I close my eyes, a thousand lines begin to connect
one by one
When I look around me I see nothing particularly magical
But when I look within
it settles in
the knowledge that we are constantly walking on a guided path
It’s only in the aftermath
that we can see it
The people who guided us
The events which shaped us
And the sparks that became lines, trailing off into new adventures
If it hasn’t happened yet?
Perhaps the dot you are standing on is just waiting for a line
*I am inspired by the idea that our lives are constantly being woven, not just walked through.
The notion that some master weaver is taking pieces of thread from over here, binding them together, linking like with like, bringing us through, under and around the events that shape us.
Perhaps the master weaver lives inside us, accessing intelligence and energy that we cannot comprehend.
After all, hearts are magnets, ask any ECG machine. We draw others to us like iron filings based on thoughts, energy, mood and whatever lessons and rewards we are acquiring
Although I have always been able to see the patterns in my past, it never occurred to me (doh!) that right now, this connection and magic are also occurring. It has to for the results to show up in my future in the same way, that certain people and events have brought me to where I am today.
How many times do we get in our own way? Doubt, fear, obsessive thoughts, anxiety or even just ho hum procrastination and distraction?
When we realise that we have been supported and aided and guided through all of “that” back there, then all the fear just goes away. Or it does for me.
I wish I had known that I would be where and who I am now when I was in my twenties. I would have been far more peaceful in the knowledge that everything was going to be just fine, that I was going to be just fine.
Life doesn’t work like that. It can’t, or we wouldn’t grow.
But knowing how it all turned out, regardless of how many times I put myself in the way, worried, prevaricated and doubted….
How could I now be concerned for the future?
We are always loved, always supported, and always fine – no matter what is occurring. If this is hurting right now, there is a new line to a new dot opening up, it’ll be here soon – so keep your heart up and look around.
I’ve been travelling again, and am about to go again this week-end. As much as I try to stay in touch with blogging on the road, sometimes, it’s just too hard, but also, sometimes, I only find what has been perculating after a few days at home. Have a beautiful day X
PS photo taken over the Brisbane river/city from our hotel room the other night. It was an amazing view and I couldn’t sleep for trying to take it all in. Lines and dots everywhere, all lit up. If only it was so clear all the time.
I snapped it on my iPhone, Steve Jobs, your legacy lives on.
9 thoughts on “A dot looking for a line”
Kate, your post brought me to tears. The dots along the way have brought me to this point in my life. “How could I now be concerned for the future?” Yet, my doubts and anxieties never seem to end.
I think it is inhuman to not be doubtful Rosaliene – only the divine are certain of everything because they can see everything. We can choose faith and hope and experience. These things seem a little flimsy to negotiate the vagaries of life sometimes, I would prefer something stronger, steelier but then if we could see everything and be certain of everything what is the point of life? We experience so that we can become who we are. I wish for control while realising that it is, at best an illusion. I think that if I died (and was to be aware of it or at least in the aftermath) that I would look back and see that at every turn I was guided, just as I can look back now and see that so many things that I thought were disasters, were actually transformative moments that led to becoming a better person. So now I would never go back and try and change a thing. I’m now 50 years old, if it has always been this way then it always will. I don’t want to wait to die to relax and say “oh, now I get it” I may as well relax now.
That said, it’s difficult to recall this great wisdom amid the small all encompassing storms of daily drama. But if I have it in my heart that it will be okay, it was before, it will be again, what’s my lesson in this? Then it gives me a buffer of reason to tie myself to in troubling times. As a person who has felt the intense loneliness of anxiety and worry so much, it is nice to go forth with a life jacket these days. I hope the same for you. X
Thanks for your wise and encouraging words, Kate <3 My life jacket is well-worn and in need of repair. Working on it.
Sending you the best of love Rosaliene
the magical is everywhere; sometimes it plops in our lap like the little zen koan this morning;good post
I really enjoyed reading your post, Kate. Jobs commencement speech quote is a perfect addition! ✨
Thanks Michelle, it really is.