In meditation
We learn compassion
Patience
We learn to sit
Commit
No matter what thoughts cross our mind
Back and forth
Jumping in
We let them do what thinking is
Because that is the brain and how it acts
Nobody would tell a heart to stop beating
So we can’t stop thinking thoughts
Only
We gently call them back
Like unruly students, the wise teacher forgives
The distraction
And inattention
Because the wise teacher
Our soul
Knows
This is how it all goes
Everything is right just the way it is
But attention please
And we return, sit quietly until the next distracting thought appears
Am I meditating
Or is something meditating me?
Because I believe
Although I may wander away
Become distracted and foolish and leave
In real life
Something patiently waits
Gently calls me back
And here I am
Sitting patiently
Waiting
For the next distracting thought
But am I meditating
Or is something meditating me
*micro macro interior exterior – I’ve been practicing regularly for a month and this meditating thing feels like a hole to my soul that I can’t find the bottom of but damn…things are certainly getting deeper
If you have tried meditation and are a failure think on this
People who come naturally to meditation are probably not the ones who benefit from it most
Just the act of having to sit and patiently call back your own attention and hundred times in 15 minutes makes you aware of how much you do it
How much we return, how much we struggle and how we don’t have to do this thing yet some of us choose
And those that do are brave and steadfast and damn – we are all just trying and then patience and self compassion begin to spill on the floor everywhere
We are all returning – a thousand times a day – a million – we return and we sit and we try and we commit
To living this difficult crazy life
The best way that we can
And that’s all anyone can do
Try it again if you already have and if you haven’t try it for the first time but first perhaps read this book by Emily Fletcher “The conscious design of happiness” forget one of the reviews that says something about like “I wish she would just tell us how to do it!”
She does – around chapter 13 and that poor reviewer, I’m sad for her because damn if anyone needed the patience to read this book and hear how to do this very simple but powerful meditation
It is people that haven’t the patience to read a fine book on meditation
Oh the irony 😂
