I spent the week-end asking myself questions. There is nothing like concern for someone you love to make you pound the “what if ” keys like a heavy metal rocker…
It was certainly noisy in there
Desiring peace, I leant on my new incense habit until my hair smelt like a gypsy.
Realising that it was all becoming a bit overwhelming (when the dog moved downstairs sneezing) I tried to take a step back and gain some perspective.
Because we are bought into these situations to learn are we not?
And if we don’t learn we have to attend the lesson again and again somewhere down the track until we do.
No thanks, I’m tired of worry spirals.
So I looked at the “what ifs” and every time the “what if” bought me a scary answer, I switched it to ask a different question.
What if he is .,,,
What if he is not.:.:
What if this occurs
Ahh but what if something bloody marvellous does
What if he is having a fabulous time
What if he ends up in jail
What if he ends up discovered for a movie?
(Equally plausible 😂😂)
What if he drinks so much he has to get his stomach pumped?
What if falls out the window?
What if he misses his plane?
What if he falls in love with a Dutch backpacker and moves to Holland?
Oh that’s right Covid
What if he finds his soul mate?
What if he bumps into Aunty Pen?
That would be nice wouldn’t it?
Unless he is drunk and says something inappropriate …
Scratch that – where were we?
What if he goes snorkelling and decides to move to Cairns to become a dive instructor – awesome – what a great life!
What if he gets left behind because they don’t do a head count and and he is eaten by sharks ….it’s happened ..
What if ..
What I found was that my nervous system didn’t know the difference between imagined fear and imagined joy or even just curiosity
We don’t know what could happen in the next minutes and hours
Could be something awful or indeed it could be something amazing
And if we don’t know then imagining the worst only leads to making us miserable and flooding our system with cortisol
I think I’ve learnt this lesson now
Thanks Universe, I’m turning in my homework – feel free to grade me
….
I wonder if I passed?
I wonder if I failed?
I wonder…
