Disassociation We run away from ourselves, the situation, the thinking of things that provoke us The more resilient and strong we seem The further away from the true problems we have drifted I had no idea this was where I existed Away from myself had become home and I hung pictures on the wall Lived […]
The truth is not the thing we think it is It moves, changes, morphs, transcends It is fluent, and it depends On only the deepest held feeling As to how it emerges and when In an argument it may stay hidden and never come about Our task therefore is to tickle it out Out of […]
The way you said my name Sounded different to everyone else The way you combined the first And the second Kathryn Anne Instantly pulling me into line Like a knot drawn taut in my stomach The way you would say it tenderly, gently, lulling me to sleep Hand upon my hair Or helping me to […]
Sometimes I feel like I’m speaking a different language One that is connected to my heart And not to the world around me I swallow, feel my tongue where it runs down the back of my throat It doesn’t stop there Fastened down hard like other tongues Instead it unravels like a rope into the […]
Who loves you when you forget to love yourself? Who whispers into your ear “hey, take it easy?” just when you need it Who is the support that you can lean on, when your stomach has butterflies, you’re nervous, doubting yourself, thinking “can I do this thing that I have set myself?” Who replies fervently […]
If I paint by numbers I am assured of a certain picture The outline is the same as the image on the box and all I have to do is simply choose colours one by one Mechanically completing a version that someone else created And I can say I painted Well done! Faithfully following the […]
Slip into my thoughts For we are all connected before we are born into another day Before the onslaught of words into our brains Only feelings and even those are vague Curling like smoke Warm like flames Then my eyes open And the words came And you were gone Buried deep within the maelstrom of […]
I wish that my heart could speak And not my mouth It would say nothing. Instead, letting the silence expound until all of existence fell silent too Until all the cars stopped The sounds of machinery and labour stilled Until every clock on every wall and in all devices Ceased their infinite tick Until the […]
“Is it cold?” I look up into the smiling face of a woman wearing a beige coloured swimming cap I lift my foggy goggles and realise that no, in fact, she wears no cap She is bald Cancer Chemo Radiation The words pop into my head and Suddenly my own rubber cap Bright purple and […]
I walk out of the town pool into a grey dripping sky Rain on my shoulders doesn’t bother me – why would it? I’m wet I drive my car down a grey street, above which, the lights are still on, perhaps they are yet to acknowledge the sun is awake, lying behind its thick blanket […]
