My shadow is stitched to my foot All that is black and self defeating All the rot Follows me I could cut it off, but then I would never know where it is hiding It could spring from the trees on a perfect summers evening And ambush my feelings Bring me low A lightening blow […]
We can go away Run away Walk away Drive away Away away away And yet, everything follows as if packed in a bag on purpose It springs out as soon as we answer the phone The biggest mistake then Was to think it could ever be different And as I watched his happy expression drain […]
When I am here, I feel I should be there or anywhere else really To be here is to sit on a pile of ants ants like, jobs to do, ants like, emails to return ants like, what’s for dinner? ants like, water the plants So the only answer to the antics of the ants […]
When we are in thought we look down When thought is in us we look up Where do thoughts and ideas come from? Why don’t we act on them with alacrity? Is it that old humbug fear of scarcity? And if we do act upon them Does the universe, rejoicing in the fact it got […]
The raindrop strikes the glass and begins to slide down quite quickly it slides down down until it runs out of momentum and pauses stuck it does not go further drying becoming a stain a memory of rain I feel that way too sometimes *It is difficult to enter a day fresh and new. Everything […]
It was the sheer intensity of its disconcerting stare even more so than the light, which was significant I could feel its attention As persistent as a mosquito in a warm room on sundown it bit me – not on the leg, or the arm but directly within my heart waking me from deepest sleep […]
Here within the parameters of me I walk Unable to transform into anyone different At least Overnight Here, with all the experiences which have brought me to who I am Despite discarding as often as I become aware Of self defeating habits and impulses Here, is where all that was has delivered me to Now […]
The text came through just as I lifted my head from the schedule I was working on “have you forgotten something?” Immediately my appointment popped into my head. I checked my watch. Two hours had sped past since I last checked. I was now late. I hastily texted, “on my way!” But she had another […]
I was happy In retrospect Which isn’t actually happiness It’s just an ephemeral memory of a moment that if I had been fully present I could have had my fill And then I wouldn’t be yearning Wasting another precious moment Before it is gone *happiness in retrospect is not true happiness, it is a memory. […]
Disassociation We run away from ourselves, the situation, the thinking of things that provoke us The more resilient and strong we seem The further away from the true problems we have drifted I had no idea this was where I existed Away from myself had become home and I hung pictures on the wall Lived […]
