I’m prone to whims and moods
We all are
I make a statement
a declaration
a decree
an oath
almost always about me
What I’m going to do
not do
give up
give away
I stick to it like glue for
a day
a week
a month
and then
poof!
gone!
I’m off and racing on another train of thought
The lines switch over with hardly a ring of a bell to tell me
I’ve done it again
Until further down the line and I get to where I am going and it’s not where I envisioned and
Bugger – I’ve caught the wrong train again!
And so I stand there like a confused orphan on the siding. Clutching a ticket for a train I didn’t know I was riding.
And vow I shall not do that again.
let it go
pick it up
let it go
pick it up
I’m tired
Tired of looking at this scenario
Like the smelly little dog that follows you home with disease in its eyes and it’s fur all matted and you want to say no but
….
you don’t
you give in
The trouble is
Humans are afflicted with a brain
Mine works perfectly well to do quite an extraordinary number of things
But staying on track is not one of them
You only have to look at the shape of the thing (The brain) all those lines and channels squiggling off in all directions – nothing straight – divided into sections.
It rewires according to how we learn and think
It is affected by what we eat and drink
It is a super computer that can only compute
what we put into it
It is like living life on a shifting carpet that can fly away any minute
Difficult
The first admission in Buddhism
Life
is
difficult
I’m in a train that can, any minute – go off track. It seems automated until you reach the final fact that
no
it
really
isn’t
You can sit in the seat – half way back with the weirdo that mutters to himself and eats Twisties and strawberry jam
Or
………………
And I’ve left it there because the thing is – I know I am the driver of the train. The operator of my brain yet certain things can get in between and shove you further back until you don’t realise that in fact, gremlins are at the wheel and you are feet up in the seat several carriages away reading a book and you look up startled when the station is called because
this is not where you wanted to be
at all
So that is my thought for the day to myself and to anyone else who regularly catches the train to nowhere 🙂
And the photo in the header is not a train of course it is a team but…it’ll do “)
Liking this and loving this a lot. Thanks for the thoughts. 🙂
😘my pleasure 👌