You were my first friend
You held my hand
And loved me
Just the way I was
Through the years
Your shadow and mine
Always got along
Even if our heads collided at times
Last year when you told me you had cancer
All I could think
Was I can’t live without her
In that moment
All of our long conversations
Our connection
I imagined a life
Without you on the end of my line
Where I couldn’t just reach out
Say hi
What’s going on
Offload mine
Download yours
Knowing all along that I was speaking with that one solid person
Who always has my back
My hand
You are such a great part of my strength
If that was gone
You were gone
The birds ceased to sing
And a dark ripple fell over the land
But we got over that bit
And we laughed and chatted our way through your chemo
Found new things to discuss
Forged deeper ties
And now you’ve pulled through just fine
But that moment
When you told me
It hangs in my mind
A not quite pulled closed curtain
And through it always peeks
This huge golden ray of sunshine and warmth
All the ways that I love you
Nothing like having something almost snatched away
To not take it for granted
Ever again
Not even for a second.
If you hadn’t guessed the picture up the top is of my sister and I laughing – we do that a lot.
Sending out some love to my sister today. Because she is pretty damn great.
A bit of history on our relationship
Bindi was the first to wax my eyebrows and pluck them
I was about 10 I think – Yeah I didn’t let anyone touch my eyebrows again until I was well past thirty
The wax was too hot
The tweezers hurt and made me sneeze and I walked around for a month looking very surprised
It was probably punishment for when I was younger – I gave her barbie doll a haircut – thought it would grow back
It didn’t
When she came home on Friday I was terrified
We shared a room
She was a tidy freak – I used to like to bring home birds nests and interesting sticks
I had stacks of books
It didn’t work out well
She used to steal my books to make me do chores
Just swipe them out from under my nose whilst I was reading – it drove me insane – 0-160 on the anger meter
She looked after us all when Mum was in hospital
I relied on her advice heavily
I loved her so much sometimes if I looked across the room and saw her I would get choked up
She used to pick me up and take me out from boarding school – Bindi is seven years older than me so she was always way cooler and I was always hurrying trying to catch up to her age
Once I hit 18 it didn’t matter and we just sort of became the same age anyway
She introduced me to food that wasn’t meat and three veg – you know like Chinese and stuff – always mind blowing
I was a worrier like a really annoying worrier – she never yelled at me for it – always kind (slightly frustrated at times but kind)
I think she loves me a lot too
Other news..
Updates – I opened a second hand online book store – selling of some of my enormous collection – think it may be a failure but that’s okay- it is just a way to sell my own books and actually keep them company while I’m doing so – once I’ve sold all the printed copies of my books it can be shut down
I don’t think I’m a highly motivated book seller – I’m overly attached to my books
Not my books that I’ve written though oh hell no – buy them, the links are on a page in here somewhere
I’m still calling myself a bookstore owner though – always wanted to run a book store
On the subject of books – I finished my first novel
It does not suck! I’m really happy with it – a few tidy ups and then off to the professional editor
I am already full of ideas for its sequel
Facebook – sigh
Taking my craft to Facebook is proving an onerous task – I don’t like Facebook much – I will give it a month and also try and improve my thoughts about it – maybe it’s awful because I think it’s awful
…maybe it just jolly well awful
Anyway – that’s my update – I’m rather on top of the world right now – hopefully I have injected some of that into this post and you are smiling
If you’re not smiling just fake it
It will give you an endorphins hit
The body doesn’t know the difference remember ..
Now I’m imagining big cheesy grins – see it’s working – don’t you feel happier? Yes
Excellent
Continue with that for the day ๐
Sisters are our first and best friends. Good luck with your new venture online ๐
Hi Claudia thank-you ๐
A wonderful post, so beautifully expressed!!
Thanks BPG ๐
Beautiful. I really hope she is beating it and know you will help her through. My brother is and and always will be my best friend, there is nothing quite like family.
Absolutely Steve – completely whooped it. Picture of health and changed lifestyle. Family is the best.
This is the best one yet!
Have you got a sister Lily?
I have 3
I only have the one but I have three big brothers – family is pretty cool
Beautiful expression of love. And you had me grinning. And arrggg is all I can say about FB. I love this โฃ๏ธ๐ ps Iโm a twin and have an older sister. Family is everything
sisters ๐ฏโโ๏ธ donโt know what we would do without themZ I have brothers that I love also but sisters just get you.
I almost peed my pants at “I walked around for a month looking very surprised”…..I can so picture it!
CONGRATS ON FINISHING YOUR NOVEL AND FOR BEING PLEASED WITH IT!!!!! ๐ That makes me happiest of all. Also, way to go on the book store, a wonderful start to a new adventure, of that I’m sure.
Iโm a terrible book store owner Mare – have you ever seen โblack booksโ and I know that should be capitals – if not google it and watch a show on Utube or something – Iโm like Bernard without the cigarettes and wine (because I quit the more interesting parts of my persona) I donโt actually want to sell my books (not the ones Iโve written the other ones) so someone buys some and Iโm like oh bloody hell suppose I will wrap it up and send it then hmph ๐ ๐ not really – but a little unmotivated – love the idea of a bookstore though ๐ and they keep the books I have written company so… all good then.
Well Bernard, I have faith in you ๐
Hahah thanks Mare
I love this. I too love you & your sister. Best sister in-laws to have. Being we are all leoโs
I also have 4 sisters that I truely lean on at times. Love them all.
Thanks for the smiles this morning Xx
Hello someone – Iโm starting to get a picture here ๐ฅฐ lovely to have you reading Xx
Hi Kate, it’s not allowing me to find this page on your site, but I’d love to shout out your bookstore on Twitter if you’ll provide the link! Is this it? https://athousandbitsofpaper.myshopify.com/
Hi ๐ yes that is it – thanks for that, Iโm not a terribly good advertiser so I do appreciate it ๐