It struck me yesterday morning whilst walking
It came to me in a question
What does high self esteem really mean with regards to the ego
Is it not a thing that builds our idea of ourselves higher
And therefore builds yet another useless extension to an imaginary house of cards
And if this is so
Does it follow that high/healthy self esteem is merely a construct and support system that the ego creates around itself
Then what is better than healthy self esteem – what should we be reaching for instead?
And by better I mean
What is real?
I cannot rest in ego because that is something that can be torn down and trampled
Where then can I rest my esteem
if not in me
The me that is still me when I’m asleep
How do I build high soul esteem?
How do I have a healthy soul experience?
Is it even worth it – because the soul really does not need these things
It just is
Which of course is when I relaxed
Because when we talk in terms of our soul
We are timeless fearless spirits having a human experience
Nothing can hurt nothing
Because we are connected to everything and therefore nothing really matters
Which is a difficult concept to explain
I knew it
But I couldn’t explain it
It is worth explaining however because of the wonderful true sense of peace and true confidence that comes from knowing you have healthy soul esteem (which no one – not even your own negative thoughts can deteriorate) vs healthy self esteem (which is as fragile as the opinion of your closest friend) which is as it should be because if you ignore all opinion (even those that love you dearly) then you may be bordering on arrogance rather than revelling in a healthy self esteem
Like I said
It’s difficult to explain
So I went to the man who knows the ego inside out and who would surely explain it all
I typed into google Elkhart Tolle (yes spelling error as well – God bless Google who knows what we are on about more than we do ourselves) and self esteem
This video was the result and a far better explanation then my own – you will probably have to visit Utube to watch it and I don’t know why the thumbnail isn’t showing but Utube is only a click away and like I said – it’s worth it if you are interested in such things.
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