I was happy
In retrospect
Which isn’t actually happiness
It’s just an ephemeral memory of a moment that if I had been fully present
I could have had my fill
And then I wouldn’t be yearning
Wasting another precious moment
Before it is gone
*happiness in retrospect is not true happiness, it is a memory.
Intangible and ephemeral.
We may not have this moment, laughing with this special person ever again. Because tomorrow they may be gone.
Moment after moment after moment – so many precious fleeting moments.
We lose this moment thinking about another, we look backward, we plan forward.
And another moment that could have been filled with peace, with bliss, with happiness is gone
I want to live a life, this life, while I’m in it
Our mind makes that aspiration very difficult, if we allow it to carry us away, as it does, again and again
The Ferris wheel reminds me that we are given these buckets of bodies and minds that we fill up with experiences and around and around we go.
But at some stage we are going to have to step out of this moment and into something unknown
We will leave
And someone else takes our place on the wheel
So let’s not waste those views
And enjoy our turn, while we still can
This is a beautiful and reflective piece of writing! It is something to aspire to but, as you say, it is not as easy as you might first think! Thanks for sharing this one Kate!
So kind of you Colin, thanks and yes it’s hard, we are constantly falling out of the moment. I continue to try to slow down and be aware, that’s all we can do.
You are very welcome! Yes, all we can do is the best we can! 🙂
Swoon! I can relate to this stunning piece. It’s incredibly heartfelt, beautiful job Kate.
Thanks lovely! 💕
sate
then wait
red rose highway glasses on!
Sometimes it’s hard to overcome anxiety in the moment, but when it’s over you see there was nothing to be anxious about, and then the happiness can begin. It’s sad but true.
Funnily enough I have more anxiety pre event then during the event itself. I tend to be fine in the moment, and remind myself of that when I begin to worry ahead of time. But everyone is different and some conditions make it difficult to be comfortable in the present moment, I hadn’t thought of that Jeff.
I’m at that age in life when more and more relatives and friends pass on and there is no more time left to go back. Only the memories remain.
Memories are precious too Rosaliene ❤️
This is such a thoughtful piece, Kate, and so beautifully written. It’s certainly made me think about my own situation. I guess while I’m dealing with so many difficult memories from the past, I’m hardly paying any attention to the present moment. Those last four lines really hit home for me. That’s truly food for thought, and thank you for this timely reminder. Xx 🌺💞
beautiful sharing Kate.. “I want to live a life, this life, while I’m in it”
I aspire to this too❣️
Love the poem. I am trying really hard to live in the moment and “enjoy the view” although it isn’t always easy.
Sorry for the late reply on this one Pooja, for some weird reason it was in my spam. I have to remember to check intermittently – WordPress is such a surprising place at times 😉
So weird but that does happen so don’t worry 😊
Well written beautiful truths!♥️
somehow I missed this one; the analogy works well —
Thanks John 😊
round and round