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Starving the monster

Aside Kate@athousandbitsofpaper13 Comments

Happiness is a dog I feed

Clicking my fingers saying

“Come on“

“Come here“

In the evening breeze

I stroke its soft fur

And peace ripples through me

Anxiety is a monster that I feed

I twine my fingers restlessly

“Come here“

“Come here“

I add to it with dire thoughts

and panic particles arise from the drain of fear

In the evenings I sit

Tapping my feet

And the realisation finally hits me

I call my dog

“Come here”

“Come here”

And we go walking

*a few photos I got back from a roll of film developed. I have fallen in love with the medium. There is no post process option available. I was either in the moment and thoughtfully took the photo – or I stuffed it up. There is a simple finality about film that calms my overthinking brain.

It is what it is.

This roll of film had some photos I absolutely loved, and a few that were blurry and told the story of my distraction. Which was also helpful.

13 thoughts on “Starving the monster”

  1. I love the profound simplicity of those last few lines:

    “And the realisation finally hits me
    I call my dog
    “Come here”
    “Come here”
    And we go walking”

    It’s so lovely.

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    • I’m glad it landed well with you Ambrose – it’s something I knew intellectually but last night the insight really hit me experientially, and now I know it will stick!

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  2. A wonderful realization to reach, any time of the day. Love that you shot film and your description of the experience. I do miss doing that, having learned how to develop film in HS. 🖤

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    • I’ve never learned how to develop and that’s a rabbit hole I think I would happily fall down! How lovely to have learned the process from start to finish.

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      • It was a fun experience that I would love to revisit. A joy to see images emerge. The smell of the chemicals is quite pungent.

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