There is a force
Alive and rampant
A feeling becomes thought
And the thoughts build
Looking for a container
The vessel becomes full
Words
Overflow on the page
They flood and spread
Flow and ebb
Burst
and give over
What was within
For a moment replete
The energy recedes
And the human breathes
But creation at its core
Is all just
Raw
Energy
And the only way to control it
Is to let it enervate
Every moment
With feeling
Remembering at all times
This is living
As a mere human being.
We are a dot in time
Less relevant than a flower
Becoming a seed
Blown on the wind
Returning to the creator
Indulging its whims
And trying to withstand
Being a fragile container
Holding in checkA
All that
Almighty power
*a photo I took looking out over the sea on a beautiful morning at the coast a year or so ago – the little memorial plaques mark where someone has released ashes. I was humbled by the thought it all ends – but it also encapsulates what it is to be human – up and down we go – the pace relentless while life runs through us
Kate, reading your words and just “seeing” your name lit up my soul! We are such fragile containers. Things overflow so easily. Someone asked me yesterday, “How are you able to keep up with all that’s going on in your life?”
“It’s life,” I replied. And I’m happy to be a part of it. I’m constantly learning. Each day is its own adventure.
It’s taken me nearly 56 years, this cancer, the divorces, my “boys” leaving, careers ending and beginning…all of it…life…to know this: I control very LITTLE. And when I feel “out of control” it’s because I was never MEANT to have it to begin. I can control how I react to all of it.
Ashes, ashes, we all fall down. We will return to dust. We’re all going through life for the first time.
I FEEL hard and I sense things–my perceptions, dreams, and constant curiosity can make things more “challenging” so I’m learning how to bend in the wind, go ahead and tip a little before the container overfills TOO much (unless it’s love?), and to use my raw energy to help others.
When I CAN’T get it out in words, I have to get in nature. I’ve been limiting distractions for 3 months now to better care for my health. I’m training and pacing so when the floods rise and become swift I’ll take to the position of floating the best I can. If anything, my journey reminds me daily to live as though it IS my last day.
I’m so happy you’re in my life. I’m sending much love, dear Kate. You’re a light in this world. XO ❣️❣️❣️
Dear Karla, Thankyou for your beautiful message, you keep your light beaming despite everything and are an inspiration. Don’t worry about floating, you are held and won’t sink, lovely to hear from you, keep shining 💕🫶🍃
You’re so welcome, Kate. What a beautiful message to me, too! You keep shining, my friend. I’ve missed you and it’s so good to see you. ❣️❣️🤗